There is a month in every year where toast is more than just bread. It is suddenly chewy again, the crunch is a novelty, and then there’s the butter. I know that toast will go back to being toast– that is, thin and cold and mandatory, but I know even more that the toast has always, will always be toast, and when it changes, it is because I have changed. I change my mind for reasons that are beyond me: I can’t convince even myself that I know why, when things fall out of my favour. That is who the world is run by– people, and that is what people are– they are shaky, their minds change often. We are tasked with living in that world, and more importantly, we are tasked with living with ourselves.
Everyday is not the same. The things we are sure of yesterday are not always the things we find solace in today. Today, we could be too tired to find peace, too foggy for clarity, too sad to be sensible. The truth of the matter, whatever the matter is, though we’ve been over it, might mean little in the morning. Yet God is big enough, and he is unchanging on our behalf. You might have never fully considered what it means for someone to be the same yesterday, today and forever. It is like something being as good as you’ve ever perceived it to be every single time you look at it. It is like something being that good even when it is sitting there unlooked at. God is always good– that is, always strong, always compassionate, always knowledgeable beyond comprehension, always untarnished– like how a sky remains the sky behind the clouds. It means that his love always guides him, and that his plans for us do not change, even when we are in the mood to doubt them.
When we accept God into our lives, it is asking for that sort of stability to come and dwell in and around us. We can count on him when we cannot count on ourselves. We can depend on him, when we cannot depend on people. Perhaps the best thing about it is that he is always in control too. And so, if you have tasked him with guiding your path, it means that the bridge will always be secure, even when we’re terrified of walking it.